Unitarian Universalist Fellowship of Corvallis, Oregon

 

“Living Ultimology”

by Rev. Dr. Gretchen Woods

Sunday, September 23, 2007

 

Let us begin with a story: When I was a young mother, in love with words and ideas as well as my husband and children, I found myself struggling with the difference between my experience and the notion of God. One day, in conversation with my husband about the poetry in which I aired this struggle, he said, simply, “You can’t use the word “God.” No one understands what you mean because “God” doesn’t mean to you what it does to other people.” He was right. I did not mean an old man on a throne pulling strings to make good things come to some folks and bad things to others, nor did I mean an anthropocentric being, nor did I mean any of the usual traditional notions that passed for God. I wasn’t expressing what I meant. What to do?

 

So, though I persisted in calling myself a theologian, it was clear that the word “theos” or  God” (or goddess or any other derivative) would not truly convey my meaning. I was not communicating honestly. I began to use words like “Life,” “Oneness,” “All,” and numerous others, before settling, somewhat uncomfortably, on “Source.” They served me, but just barely.

 

Still, I wanted to convey my experience of awareness, of energy/consciousness, of mystery, of wonder, of being as verb (rather than noun). I resonate with Denise Levertov’s use of “awe” and “gratitude,” Like many who experience a deep loving connection with life source, I want to make sense of that experience and share its meaning with others, as a gift and a blessing. I want to express meaning from my experience. I want to “do” theology.

 

Then, just a year and a half ago, I taught Unitarian Universalist History and Theology at Seattle University. In the class, one of the students, Bill Graves, suggested that calling the description of this study “theology” might benefit from a change to “ultimology.” He had heard that suggestion from the Rev. Thomas Anastasi. I asked Thomas about this suggestion and he, in turn, said, he thought the idea came from Richard Niehbur, but he wasn’t sure. When Bill and I Googled the word, we came up with only 8 references: the first being the East Shore Unitarian newsletter announcing this service, the second a reference to one of Bill’s sermons on the web, another in Italian. Sigh . . .

 

Bottom line . . . I think we need to move away from language that carries the baggage that goes with the word “theos,” or “God.” I have tried to reclaim this word, and culturally grounded meanings seem to overcome redefinition every time. People dopn’t understand me when I say “God.” So I am here today to offer alternative language that could allow us questioning Unitarian Universalists to reclaim the leading edge of thought about what is ultimate that we held in the 18th and 19th centuries, moving beyond the cultural limitations of the language of “theology.” In the process, I would offer agreement with some of the leading critics of current language about religion, provide an alternative definition of religion, and outline a process that leads us to a deeper and fuller expression of what is ultimate for us. I do this, not to tell you the complete and unalterable truth, which I do not presume to know, but to invite you to examine your own life for what it tells you is ultimate.

           

Critics of contemporary theology, especially fundamentalist theology, offer legitimate critiques: Sam Harris notes, in his book The End of Faith,  “Before you can get to the end of this paragraph, another person will probably die because of what someone else believes about God.” (p. 77.) Would it were otherwise, but I find it hard to refute this criticism, given the situation in the Middle East, Africa, and the Balkans, to name just three “hot spots.” Richard Dawkins insists that evolution does not require a God, in the traditional sense. I agree. I think it is sad – and inaccurate - that religion as the outgrowth of theology is viewed as in opposition to the notion of evolution.

           

Still, I observe that scientifically minded critics of theology and religion are actually arguing against piety, institutional claims that are culturally bound, or fundamentalism that is more driven by fear and tribalism than by response to “Beloved Presence.” None of these constitutes true religion.

           

As an alternative, I offer a definition of religion that I learned from the Rev. Dr. Lloyd Averill in one of my doctoral classes: “Religion is the search for that meaning which has power to give shape to our experience, purpose to our existence, and motivation and moral energy to our human enterprises.” This goes to the heart of what is ultimate without requiring a traditional God. It has nothing to do with how one engages in pietistic activity, what the polity or power of an institution claims, nor what a particular culturally grounded text insists. It presumes that we, as conscious human beings, are engaged in “a free and responsible search for truth and meaning,” a search that might have some worthy result that we could share with one another.

 

Further, the results of this search should help us to deal with our every day lives, not simply prepare us for some other life. The results will “give shape to our experience,” so that we can actually make sense of what has happened to us and be able to go forward from tragedy or comedy with some clarity. They will “give purpose to our existence,” enabling us to meet the challenges and triumphs of our lives with grace. They will give “motivation and moral energy to our human enterprises,” so that we see clearly what we need to  do with our lives in whatever future we encounter. This is not “otherworldly information.” This is here and now engagement with the ethical conundrums of our world. It deals with what is ultimate in our lives.

           

So, how do we engage this process of “ultimology,” of our search for meaning that might tell us who we are, why we are here, what is important and how we might live? In every case that makes sense to me, the process begins with experience, the “direct experience of that transcending mystery and wonder, affirmed in all cultures, which moves us to a renewal of the spirit and an openness to the forces that create and uphold life.” Each of us will experience this in different ways. Some of us will find it in nature, some in art, some in elegant thought processes, some in simple human connection of intimacy or community. All else proceeds from our own direct experience, and it is one of the geniuses of Unitarian Universalism to acknowledge this and affirm it.

           

This direct experience is spirituality. More precisely, spirituality is direct experience that leads to the meaning that defines our religion, “that which ties our lives back together.” When I found – was given - new words to “Amazing Grace” while walking beside Lake Erie after a particularly nasty fight with my daughter, I had no idea how powerfully they would affect my entire life from that time. I suspect they had much to do with my call to ministry. Yet, there they were, of a piece, an experience of grace freely given with no giver in sight. But if spirituality exists in a vacuum, it only reaches one person. And that is not my experience.

           

Spirituality is allied with our human need to communicate, to share, to offer to others our moments of insight, and thus inevitably leads to an effort to articulate the meaning of these experiences. That process is called theology. I would like to deepen and widen the work of theology and take it out of “God language and any particular cultural context, so that humanity might benefit without being beleaguered by language or cultural baggage: hence, the notion of “ultimology.” Let us find ways to speak of spiritual experience without dragging “God” with all its conflicting meanings into it. This is ultimology.

           

Any functional ultimology must be able to speak to the definition of religion offered by Lloyd Averill. Further, we must acknowledge that we live our ultimology, consciously or unconsciously, for we live the meaning we make of our experiences day to day, whether it be meaning of hatred or love, of fear or confidence. And finally, not only do we live our meaning-making, our meaning-making lives: it changes with our living. Do any of you understand life exactly as you did when you were 10, 20, 30, etc.? I would propose that you are not truly living if your experience has not caused your understanding to grow and change, to live! You may or may not be conscious of the changes, but they are there in your life. So we live our ultimology, and our ultimology lives in and through us.

           

Does this mean we can believe anything we want? Far from it! We need to make sense of our lives resonant with our experiences, with a recognition that we also live with filters that need to be examined as well. Do we look through a glass half empty or half full? What is our family predisposition for resilience or for depression? Have we experienced love that honors our true being? Can we find ways to refill our energies when they drain away. Our ultimology is a result of many filters, chances, and choices. And we need to be willing to challenge our consciousness of all of it. That is why religious community is so important to our ultimology.

           

It is in community that we are supported, loved, and challenged. If the community also has values resonant with the best of life, both chances and choices, our chances of a richer and fuller ultimology grow. Our religious community recently experienced a murder, a horrifying and shocking murder. Yet the family has been held with love and support that has helped to assuage the terrible grief and to honor the life of the person killed. And the community will continue to do that for the weeks and months ahead, knowing that this will influence the consciousness of the spouse and the children so deeply affected by this senseless loss. This goes beyond words and symbols, it is experience lived the best way possible in the midst of tragedy. It is what we are called to do by our Unitarian Universalist values.

           

So let me note, in conclusion, that the interplay of person and community, or choice and chance, of awareness of experience, all deeply affect one’s ultimology. We are human and need to make sense of our experience. We need to make sense of being alive and knowing we will die, as Forrest Church reminds us. We need to make our ultimologies conscious and useful in the best way possible,

           

As we become more aware that we live in a global village, we need to overcome the current predisposition of religion to be culturally biased and violent toward human beings and all of life. We need to choose symbols, signs, and rituals that emphasize grace and support and love, rather than asserting superiority by demanding inferiority of anything “other.” We need to recognize our place in the larger web of life. And we need to be able to speak respectfully, articulately, and lovingly to those possibilities for the greater good of all.

 

Essentially, we need to be open to new language that better reflects our experience. As an example, I close with the poem “Epiphany” by Pem Kremer:

 

Lynn Schmidt says

            she saw You once as prairie grass,

            Nebraska prairies grass;

 

            she climbed out of her car on a hot highway,

            leaned her butt on the nose of her car,

            looked out over one great flowing field,

            stretching beyond her sight until the horizon became

            vastness, she says,

            responsive to the slightest shift  of wind,

                                    full of infinite change,

                                    all One.

 

She says when she can’t pray

she calls up Prairie Grass.

 

For Lynn Schmidt, what is ultimate can be seen in Prairie Grass. What is it for you? That is your ultimology. How does it live and change? Only you can find out. I wish you blessing of the search in good community with respect, responsibility, and relish for the process.

So Be It! Blessed Be!

“Living Ultimology”

Order of Service

Sunday, August 26, 2007

 

Welcome

 

Choral Introit: “Nearer, My _____, to Thee”

by Sarah Flower Adams & Lowell Mason

Lighting of Chalice, RE Lantern, and Partner Church Chalice

Memorial Candle for Jane Loomis

Opening Words

Opening Song #23 “Bring Many Names”

 

Teacher Installation

Sung Response – by Kathleen Tracy

 

Announcements

 

Reading: : “I Believe This . . .” by Jim Wagner

Celebrating with Music: “ Total Praise”

         by Richard Smallwood

 Sermon: “Living Ultimology”

 

Sung Response: #27 “I Am That Great and Fiery Force”

Spoken Response

 

Candles of Joy and Sorrow/ Offering

Meditation

 

Closing Song #31 “Name Unnamed” (verses 1-3)

Closing Words

Closing Song #31 “Name Unnamed” (verses 4 & 5)

 

Celebrants: Lorene Hales

            the Rev. Dr. Gretchen Woods

Music Director: Ray Elliott

Pianist: Raven Sanders

Co-Directors of Religious Exploration:

            Niya Standish and Michael Molk